Sigh

Well, that one felt like a knife in the chest, after so many other blows. For the last day or so I've actually found myself surprised when I look down and there isn't a huge gaping wound there for everyone to see.

So you'll forgive me if I'm not around for a while. If you need me, y'all can still reach me at the email address or on my cellphone.

News

I don't often write notes on here [Facebook] since most of y'all have my journal address, and that's where I keep you updated (although not nearly as much as I should). But I had a spare moment, so rather than playing Javanoid or reading erotica I thought I'd write a little about what's going on for me right now.

I dropped out of college today. It's not ideal, but it's really the only choice I can make. When it comes down to the bare bones of the situation, it's pretty simple: I can't physically look for a decent job (and work that job when I DO get it) and look after Mom and do the college thing. Mom needs to be looked after - or will in two weeks - and the bills need to be paid, and college is the only even slightly expendable thing. So college has to go.

As I said, not ideal, but it's what has to be done. See me being mature and logical about it?

I'm not over the moon, but I'm not horribly depressed either. Probably because being depressed involves actually thinking, and I don't really have the time or energy to think about too much right now. It's sort of a relief, actually, not to be bogged down with all the emotion that usually comes with something like this. The same goes for my personal life. Sure, I miss Oli, but I'm sort of laissez-faire about the whole thing. What will be will be, and all that. It's a weird feeling, though. I just realized today that this is the first time since I was 17 that I haven't been head-over-heels for someone. My crushes - or love affairs, whatever you choose to call them - tend to go on for a while, and I don't usually realize that I'm over one person until I fall for someone new. I'm not sure why. I guess I just like the feeling of being in love, or at least in like. Oh, I still love Oli, of course, but I accept that things are the way they are, and that I have to get on with my life.

It's especially weird right now, because Christmas is just around the corner, and for me Christmas is always the time of year when I live, speak and breathe romance. There's ALWAYS someone on my mind at Christmas, even if I wasn't particularly thinking of them before. Something about the crisp cold weather and the Christmas shopping and the tree and lights and log fires and snow...it makes me want to hold hands and cuddle up on the hearth and toast marshmallows. Even now I'm getting all gooey and happy-feeling, and I KNOW I'm not in the market for a relationship right now.

A strange thing, though: for the last couple of weeks (barring the time I spent at Oli's) I've been having all these quite disturbing dreams, mostly Christmas-related, that are straight out of my mental library of teenage romance (or at least what passed for it, in my poor late-bloomer's life).

Funny how the brain works when you're asleep, isn't it? When I'm awake, I don't think much about the past, beyond vaguely wishing that I'd done things a bit better, been a bit more social / street-smart / motivated in school. When I'm awake, I'm generally happy with the way things are. But when I'm asleep, I keep dreaming about things and people that I don't consciously think about most of the time. I'm sure my dreams are telling me something, although I don't know WHAT. That I like male attention, I guess. Which I already knew. *rolls eyes* I could have used something a little more helpful, oh dream-spirits.

But any amount of male-oriented dreams, even ones that feature guys I barely know, is better than constant nightmares, so I'm not complaining. =)

I don't know, maybe I'm having the dreams particularly BECAUSE I'm not wanting a relationship, because with dreams I can wallow in romantic happy thoughts without having to actually DO anything. But either way, it's quite distracting.

Oh well. Maybe by this time next month I'll have changed my mind about a relationship, and will actually accept a date in time for Christmas. Stranger things have happened.

Anyway, I've wasted a lot of time on this note - I had the whole damn thing written out, and it was a lot better than this version, and then I clicked a link and for some reason it opened here instead of in a new window, and I lost everything I'd written, so I've spent the last half hour trying to recreate it, with limited success. Nevermind. I'm off to bed.

Kisses. =)

Oh, the Irony

An old friend who I haven't seen for a long while, since he walked out of my life, came to visit last night. He sat on the front step with me, and we both looked at the garden, and he said, "How have you been? I've been thinking about you recently."

Standard thing to say, right?

But I'm not thinking, "Oh, how nice, he came back" or even "What a jerk for disappearing on me and letting me worry about him for all these years". No, I'm thinking, "Hmm, paralinguistics combined with phatic features and the use of implicit language imply procrastination probably due to nervousness."

DAMMIT!

And here I thought I emerged from English exams unscathed.

15 Things

This isn't actually one that I received, for once - it's one I made up just for fun.

It's just off the top of my head, not really well-thought-out, so I may well change my mind. =)


15 DVDs I Would Rather Not Live Without (Although I Could):

1) Grease
2) Brown Sugar
3) Practical Magic
4) How Stella Got Her Groove Back
5) Poetic Justice
6) Finding Forrester
7) Oklahoma!
8) What's Eating Gilbert Grape
9) Breakfast at Tiffany's
10) The Graduate
11) The Breakfast Club
12) Antwone Fisher
13) Whisper of the Heart
14) Love, Actually
15) You've Got Mail

15 CDs I Would Cry If I Lost:

1) Affirmation - Savage Garden
2) This Way - Jewel
3) A Little Deeper - Ms Dynamite
4) Pieces of You - Jewel
5) Boy In Da Corner - Dizzee Rascal
6) Dizzy Up the Girl - Goo Goo Dolls
7) Legacy: The Greatest Hits Collection - Boyz II Men
8) I Wanna Go There - Tyrese
9) Cieli Di Toscana - Andrea Boccelli
10) Thriller - Michael Jackson
11) Greatest Hits - 2Pac
12) Spirit - Jewel
13) Graceland - Paul Simon
14) Ashanti - Ashanti
15) Lover's Rock - Sade

15 Books That I Could Read Over And Over:

1) False Memory - Dean Koontz
2) The Power of One - Bryce Courtenay
3) Nowhere Man - Rebecca York
4) Circle of Friends Trilogy - Shannon Waverly
5) Song of the Lioness Quartet - Tamora Pierce
6) The Keeping Place - Isobelle Carmody
7) Summer Dreams, Winter Love - Mary Francis Shura
8) The Celestine Prophecy - James Redfield
9) Sati - Christopher Pike
10) Love Invents Us - Amy Bloom
11) The Best of Marion Zimmer Bradley
12) Final Friends Trilogy - Christopher Pike
13) The Neal's Yard Book of Home Remedies
14) The Care and Feeding of Indigo Children - Doreen Virtue
15) Shattered: Life With M.E. - Lynn Mitchell

15 Things I'm Always Buying On Ebay:

1) Rebecca York books
2) Shoes
3) Silver Earrings
4) Silk Clothing (all sorts of clothes - but usually silk)
5) Prom Dresses (I have about a dozen now - all £30 or less)
6) Mega Drive Games
7) Game Boy Games
8) Computer game systems (a GameCube, 2 GBAs, 1 GBC, and I'm thinking about a DS)
9) Clothes from different cultures (ao dais, salwar kameezes - next I want a Hawaiian grass skirt)
10) Other books that I can't find anywhere else
11) Um...I don't really buy other stuff on ebay.

15 Things I Like About My Body (Whoohoo for Empowerment):

1) The fact that I don't need blusher, mascara or lipstick - it always looks like I'm wearing it anyway
2) Clear skin (on my face, anyway - too many scars on the rest of my body)
3) The way my lower legs look in little crochet slippers
4) My good posture (well, at least Diane says I have good posture)
5) Muscles in my upper arms and calves
6) My breasts (OK, so it's murder trying to find a nice dress when you're a D cup. Whatever, I don't think I could get used to small breasts now, as much as I complain about mine.)
7) The way my skin stays soft even though I refuse to use lotions on it
8) The dimples in my cheeks when I smile
9) The way I crinkle up my nose when I laugh
10) The fact that I have hips, even when I'm thinner (yeah, I complain about this as well, but again, I don't think I could get used to a boyish body, as much as I want one sometimes.)
11) The way my eyes change colour with my mood and the seasons
12) My front teeth - even though half my teeth are manky, the ones at the front look good ;-)
13) My strong feet (dancing en pointe does that to you)
14) Full lips - I've FINALLY got used to them *rolls eyes*
15) My hair - I am proof that the less you do to it the better condition it gets into. I do nothing other than wash it every other day and brush it in the morning and before I go to bed. Occasionally I blow-dry, if it's cold outside or I'm going to sleep after washing it.

(OK, some of that sounds conceited, but people need to learn to love things about themselves. And hey, there's plenty that I DON'T like. *rolls eyes*)

15 Celebrity Guys I Totally Would:

1) Wentworth Miller
2) Tupac (if he were alive - not into necrophilia though)
3) Kano
4) Tyrese
5) Julian McMahon
6) Ne-Yo
7) T.I. (Dammit, Jade!)
8) Jay Sean
9) Simon Webbe
10) Jason Behr
11) David Boreanaz
12) Omar Epps
13) Akon
14) Daniel Day-Lewis
15) Gregg Rainwater

15 Real-Life Guys Who I Think Are Damn Hott:

1) Curt ;-)
2) Nathan West
3) Nathan Forrest
4) Cameron
5) Michael Australia
6) Anthony Piper
7) Ellie's ex Steve
8) That bartender at the Penderel's Oak
9) Richard (OK, so I haven't seen him in 4 years - I bet he's still sexy)
10) Jamie from Camden
11) Mike the Marine
12) Becki's Ian (in a purely aesthetic way, dearest)
13) Michael the Physio
14) Angie's Paul (in the same way as Ian, LOL)
15) Frankly, I think I'm running out of guys. I don't want to put anyone from here on my list, so let's stop there.

(Notice that I did NOT put on any guys from college? I'll never tell who I have a crush on there!)

15 Favourite Authors:

1) Isobelle Carmody
2) Tamora Pierce
3) Dean Koontz
4) Christopher Pike
5) Caroline B. Cooney
6) Amy Bloom
7) Janet Evanovich
8) Rebecca York
9) Muriel Jensen
10) Brenda Novak
11) Jilly Cooper
12) Virginia Andrews
13) Marion Lennox
14) Frank Downey
15) Nick Scipio

15 Things I Disagree With The Majority On:

1) I hated "Requiem for a Dream".
2) I do not think that Whitney Houston's voice is at all well-suited to "I Will Always Love You" (she's too strong - it needs to be sung in a fragile, breakable way.)
3) I do not think Stephen King is the greatest horror writer.
4) I don't feel threatened by my boyfriend reading porn.
5) People do not all suck.
6) Nietzsche wasn't all that smart - maybe he had a high IQ, but he knew squat about the ways things really are.
7) Quantum mechanics are actually pretty interesting.
8) Being "normal" is just fine.
9) It's better to be kind than funny.
10) Revenge doesn't usually make you feel better.
11) If one of my friends is bitching about me, I'd rather not know.
12) Suicide is NEVER justifiable (except maybe euthanasia, but IMO that's a different thing altogether.)
13) The Pussycat Dolls are basically bitches, and most guys don't like bitches, even when they look like THAT.
14) The answer to world poverty is not necessarily sending money to the poorer countries.
15) Chocolate doesn't actually taste that good.


...and now I'm tired. Fill in for yourself - or just fill in the bits that interest you, I don't care - and send back to me, por favor!

A Bunch of Questions

Stolen from Oli. Who stole it from someone called Victoria. Keep on passing the love around, baby. ;-)

Do this (putting a cross next to all the ones you've done) and repost it with the title:

I've done --- out of the 132 stupid things.

Level 1

(x) Smoked A Cigarette (not a habitual thing, though)
(x) Smoked A Cigar (I love the smell of cigars...reminds me of Spanish bars. Ah, the recollections of childhood...)
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex (Um, yes. Ellie once. And Sanjit once. Wish I hadn't kissed Sanjit, it was all part of a very surreal night. Curt said, "I bet you wouldn't," and my usual response to bets when I'm drunk is, "How much?")
(x) Drank Alcohol (The other night I drank one bottle of Smirnoff ice and was completely wasted - how sad is that? Shows how rarely I actually drink...)

SO FAR: 4

Level 2

(x) Are / Been In Love (Three times. None of them quite worked.)
(x) Been Dumped (Sort of. He walked out, said he'd be back, then I never heard from him again. But he still calls my house phone and doesn't say anything.)
(x) Shoplifted (A chocolate bar, when I was 10. And yes, I got caught.)
() Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight (Not exactly a fight. One time I got socked in the jaw because I said something that was taken the wrong way. Another time I was attacked and had to fight him off. Never a real fight, though.)

SO FAR: 8

Level 4 (Where the hell is Level 3?)

(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person (Sure, celebrities all the time. Currenly Daniel Day-Lewis, after watching Last of the Mohicans last night.)
(x) Skipped School (Once or twice just for fun. But I missed so much school through illness, I couldn't really afford to cut.)
() Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die (Both. Although more animals and plants than people, luckily.)

SO FAR: 11

Level 5

(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends (Ehh. Not in the sense of actually wanting to go out or sleep with them, but yeah, there are a couple of people I think are really cool. And good-looking, too.)
() Been To Paris (Drove past it once. I begged my brother to drive through but he said we already had too far to go, since we were driving to Barcelona and then catching a ferry to Menorca. Personally, I don't think an extra hour looking at Paris would have made much difference to a two-and-a-half day journey, but whatever.)
(x) Been To Spain (Lived there when I was a kid, and then again when I was 17. I visit when I can. I love Spain.)
(x) Been On A Plane (More times than I can count.)
() Thrown Up From Drinking (No, thank God. Throwing up is the worst.)

SO FAR: 14

Level 6

(x) Eaten Sushi (Does vegetarian sushi count?)
() Been Snowboarding (Someday...)
() Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
() Been In A Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 15

Level 7

(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship (Yes. Nuff said.)
(x) Taken Pain Killers (Is that like, ever, or an overdose? Either way, yes. Not that I want to die or anything - just sometimes they don't work and I'm in pain and the only thing to do is take extra ones and hope it knocks me out and when I wake up I feel better. Blah.)
(x) Love / Loved Someone Who You Can't Have (Where do I start? Half the guys I like are either gay or too old or attached or live halfway round the world. Or in the case of Johnny, all four. But there have been plenty others.)
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By (Sure. Good way to waste time. Although IMO, time enjoyed is never time wasted.)
(x) Made A Snow Angel (Fun, if cold.)

SO FAR: 20

Level 8

(x) Had A Tea Party (LOL. With my dolls when I was a kid. And then with friends when I was a bit older. And still do, now and then.)
(x) Flown A Kite (I have a wicked cool kite that flies with no wind, but I think my Mom left it in Spain. I hope it's still there when I go back.)
(x) Built A Sand Castle (I grew up on an island in the Med, what do YOU think? I made a sandcastle most days of my childhood.)
( ) Gone mudding (?)
(x) Played Dress Up (Sure. I had a great imagination when I was a kid. Sometimes I was a fairy. And sometimes I was a demon. And after my Mom bought me Pretty Woman to teach me the facts of life when I was about 6, sometimes I was a hooker. Good times.)

SO FAR: 24

Level 9

(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves (Good clean autumn fun. Or dirty autumn fun, whatever.)
(x) Gone Sledging (I wanted to go a few weeks ago, but I had appendicitis. I hope it snows again this winter.)
() Cheated While Playing A Game (Probably, although I can't actually remember doing it.)
(x) Been Lonely (Not recently, but yeah, when I was in my teens.)
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School (School quite often. Everyone thought I was lazy - I didn't find out I was really sick until I'd been doing it for a couple of years.)

SO FAR: 28

Level 10

(x) Watched The Sun Set (Pretty. Best when it's with someone you love.)
() Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake (No. I like snakes. As long as I know they're there.)

SO FAR: 29

Level 11

(x) Been Tickled (I hate it, it hurts so much. I don't know why.)
() Been Robbed / Vandalized (Guy in Brixton tried to mug me once, but I hissed at him and clawed at his eyes, and he ran. Nothing like doing the unexpected to scare people. Even muggers.)
() Been cheated on (If I have, I didn't know about it. And still don't.)
() Been Misunderstood (Not really, when people have a bad opinion of me they're usually right. *grins*)

SO FAR: 30

Level 12

() Won A Contest (Awards at school and stuff, but never like a free competition. The things I've won, I worked hard for.)
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention (Not really, although once I got yelled at for spying on the boys in the locker rooms. A whole bunch of us were supposed to get detention, but our sex ed teacher stood up for us.)
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident (Not a serious one, although I've had whiplash a few times.)

SO FAR: 31

Level 13

( ) Had / Have Braces (No braces, but a couple of fillings, and two root canals - ick.)
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (With the help of Ellie. So really, more like a quarter pint - she eats three times what I do, LOL.)
(x) Danced in the moonlight (Lots.)

SO FAR: 33

Level 14

(x) Hated The Way You Look (When I was younger. I'm more used to it now, although I still don't like the connotations that go along with it.)
(x) Witnessed A Crime (When I was 13, I was out with a couple of friends late one night and we went down this back alley and saw a girl being raped. She wouldn't let us call the police and she looked ready to run, so Abdul broke the guy's nose and I kicked him in the balls. Not my best moment, but justified - at least I felt that way at the time.)
(x) Pole Danced (Just for fun, y'understand?)
(x) Questioned Your Heart (Yes, and questioning gets me nowhere. Go with your base instincts.)
( ) Been Obsessed With Post-It Notes

SO FAR: 37

Level 15

(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud (#Mud, mud, glorious mud...#)
() Been Lost (Not really, I have good radar. Although once I got on the wrong bus and ended up in Walthamstow. But I just turned around and got on the right bus back to Holloway. Made a good story when I came in late to class - everyone thought it was funny, for some reason. Maybe because I'm such a dope.)
() Been To The Opposite Side Of The World (Nope. Farthest I've been is Greece.)
(x) Swam In The Ocean (Love the ocean.)
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying (Ehh. Had a couple of cancer scares. And when I was a teenager, I wanted to be dying so a sexy vampire could bring me back to life. I was a weird teen.)

SO FAR: 40

Level 16

() Cried Yourself To Sleep (Probably, but not that I can remember. Crying usually gives me a headache and makes it IMPOSSIBLE to sleep.)
(x) Played Cops And Robbers (The board game. Never the chase game.)
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers (I have the Anatomy Colouring Book. Laugh if you will, but it's a great way to learn the stuff you need to know.)
(x) Sang Karaoke (A painful experience. I hate doing things in front of a crowd.)
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins (McDonalds and stuff. Never in a good restaurant, though.)

SO FAR: 44

Level 17

(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't (Usually falling for a guy.)
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls (But never the mean kind. Just the stupid kind to boys I used to fancy.)
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose (Hah, yes.)
(x) Kissed In The Rain (Mmm...think Johnny Depp in Gilbert Grape. Very sexy.)

SO FAR: 48

Level 18

(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus (Every year!)
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ Sun Rise With Someone You Care/Cared About (I expect at some point.)
(x) Blown Bubbles (Still do.)
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere (Hell yes. Beach bonfires and snuggling up to the chest of someone you like, and having their arms wrapped around you...best feeling ever.)

SO FAR: 52

Level 19

(x) Crashed A Party (A couple of times.)
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People (No, thank God.)
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading (Not for a couple of years. I need new skates. I gave mine to my Dad's girlfriend on the condition that he buy me new ones...still waiting, six years later.)
(x) Had A Wish Come True (Seems to happen quite a lot. Lucky me. Never the one I really want, though.)
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 55

Level 20

(x) Worn Pearls (Of course, dahling. I have my Mom's. I have two cream dresses to wear to fancy dances - one big meringue and one simple sheath - and they look great with pearls. It's not something I make a habit of, though - just for special occasions.)
() Jumped Off A Bridge
() Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
(x) Swam With Dolphins. (In Menorca, they sometimes come and swim around you, if you're really calm and quiet. I swam with some off the Isla d'en Colom.)

SO FAR: 57

Level 22

(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/Ice Cube (Ice cube. The actual thing, not the rapper. ;-)
() Kissed A Fish (WTF?)
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes (Man's shirts. Great in the summer.)
(x) Sat On A Roof Top (Good place to talk to people.)

SO FAR: 60

Level 23

(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs (Yeah. I hate the sound, though, so I have it for when I'm in trouble. I thought I was really loud, but nobody woke up last time I did, so I guess I'm not as loud as I thought.)
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel (I like my bones where they are, thanks.)
() Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently Stayed Up For A While Talking To Someone You Care About (Curt calls me in the middle of the night quite often. But I don't usually sleep until early morning, anyway.)

SO FAR: 62

Level 24

(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree (Until our apple tree got a disease and had to be cut down. *cries*)
(x) Climbed A Tree (Love climbing trees. I was always happiest when I was up a tree, and the only kid in the neighborhood who'd do it in heels and a miniskirt. But I haven't climbed for a while - the council cut all the lower limbs off all the trees in order to stop kids climbing. Spoilsports.)
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House (Been in one. Never had my own, though.)
(x) Been Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone (The Shining. And the Sixth Sense. All other evil creatures I can take, but ghosts always scared me.)

SO FAR: 66

Level 25

(x) Believed In Ghosts (Seen 'em. Hard not to believe what you see.)
(x) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes (Um, yes. Bad, isn't it? In my defense, most of them cost less than £10, and I never throw anything away until it's really manky, so I've accumulated them over the last 12 years - my shoe size hasn't changed since I was 11.)
(x) Gone Streaking (Nothing wrong with being naked.)
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 69

Level 26

() Played Chicken (Stupidest game ever - whoever kills themself is the cooler one, WTF?)
(x) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On (By my Dad, would you believe?)
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger (Although they usually use words like beautiful and stunning. Weirdness.)
(x) Been Easily Amused (Everything amuses me. It's a result of reading too much Dean Koontz.)

SO FAR: 72

Level 27

() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later (I grew up on an island where most of the jobs involve fish, and I've never caught one. Never ever tried. We went crabbing once, but I get too attached to sea creatures to kill them. What can I say, I love the sea.)
(x) Made A Porn Video/Got Asked To Make One (I got approached by someone who wanted me to work for something called the "Othello and Desdemona film company". Wonder what that's about. *rolls eyes* Never made one, though.)
(x) Caught A Butterfly (I've let them land on me a couple of times, but I don't want to catch them, you kill them too easily.)
() Laughed So Hard You Cried
() Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 74

Level 28

() Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You (People always seem to do this to me.)
() Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name (Never in bed, luckily.)
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping (I remember this one time, Lara and I were in Greece, and someone stole all our clothes.)
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
() Tried To Hurt Yourself

SO FAR: 78

Level 29

(x) Rode A Roller Coaster (Sometimes many times in a row.)
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling (Snorkelling loads. Never proper scuba, though - just training in a pool. Ellie's getting certified to instruct when she's in Mexico this coming summer, and she promised to teach me properly, whoohoo!)
(x) Had A Cavity (Too many.)
() Black-Mailed Someone
() Been Black Mailed (A couple of people tried, but I was just like, who cares? If I'm going to do something that I'm ashamed of, I deserve to have people find out.)

SO FAR: 81

Level 31

(x) Been Used (Ehh, maybe. But it was mutual, so I don't think of it as using. It's just two people who get something out of being together.)
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs (Yes, and for years everyone was like, how do you fall UP the stairs? But it's very possible.)
() Licked A Cat (LOL, no. But I have kissed a cat and licked a fish. A cooked one, anyway. Cooked fish, not cooked cat.)
(x) Bitten Someone (Obie. I wish I were a dog and had given him rabies. *growls*)
(x) Licked Someone (Sexy.)

SO FAR: 85

Level 32

(x) Been Shot At/Or At Gunpoint (My stepbrothers shot me in the butt once. I was too embarrassed to go to hospital, so I dug the bullet out with a scalpel and a pair of tweezers - thank God for limbering ballet exercises - and the buggers got away with it. Still have the scar.)
(x) Had Sex In The Rain (Jamie, Parliament Hill Fields. It was August, though, in the middle of the night, and it was warm and only lasted a few minutes. The rain, not Jamie.)
( ) Flattened Someone's Tires
( ) Rode Your Car/Truck Until The Gas Light Came On
( ) Got Five Dollars Or Less Worth Of Gas

TOTAL: 87


My grand total is 87. Yeah, I'm pretty normal. Apart from the fact that I write long answers to pretty much everything. ;-)

And later...

In the last however many months, I can add to this:

Met someone BECAUSE of Facebook
Fancied someone on Facebook
Spent more than 6 hours on the phone
Laughed so hard I cried
Hated the way I look

And all of those things are because of one person, LOL.