Anyway, it was a wonderful show. Both Nick and Katie sing and play guitar - Nick does both covers and his own material; a mix of soft-rock, folk-rock and country, as well as plenty of stuff that doesn't fit into any categories. I've known him to cover Neil Young, as well as a couple of James Taylor songs and several David Bowie tunes (again, the uncategorizable - what on earth would you call David Bowie, genre-wise?) but mostly he sings his own stuff. Katie does occasional soft-rock pieces, but mostly seems to do light blues and a little jazz. Today I think she just did her own things, but in the past I've heard her sing songs that were originally sung by Jessica Rabbit, as well as an incredible cover of "House of the Rising Sun", which was the best version I'd heard since Joan Baez sang it.
There were several old friends from high school there, too, that I hadn't seen for many years, so it was really nice to catch up. I'm extremely glad I went, and will try to see Nick - or ideally Nick and Katie - play again soon.
This whole socialising thing isn't turning out to be as hard as I thought it would be. It's initially hard to push myself to get going, especially when it's raining outside and I didn't sleep well and want to take a nap (like today), but once I actually get my butt moving, going out and having fun is a lot easier than I expected.
People have been really nice to me recently, which makes it easier to be brave. Someone on here called my photo "gorgeous and captivating", which really gave me a happy moment. An old friend who'd never seen my picture called me beautiful yesterday. And when I went grocery shopping two nights ago, one guy called me beautiful, and another one said I was sexy as hell, and that he liked my clothes, and he sang Jay Sean's "Down" to me. Which was totally silly and totally wonderful, at the same time. I guess I didn't need to freak myself out about putting up a photo or going out dressed up, after all. Nobody's been hostile to me about the way I look, and several people have been really sweet.
I suppose I should go, it's just gone 4am and I'm really hungry. I've been getting hungry so often recently, which is a very strange sensation to me, after eating so little for so long. Some nights I wake up (if I've been asleep, that is) with actual hunger pains, even when I'd eaten six or eight hours ago, whereas last year and the year before (and, if I'm honest, the year before that, and the year before that) I'd eat once or twice a day, and sometimes I'd forget to do THAT. It was really, really rare for me to get hungry, and when I did I'd nibble on something convenient, but now I'm hungry often and seem to need to eat large amounts. Large for me, anyway.
I really, really hope that this eating thing isn't going to make me gain more weight, because this year I'm hoping to go down at least one dress size. It's hard to say how much actual weight I need to lose, because I have such a high proportion of muscle. According to height-weight charts, I could lose anything up to eighty pounds and still be at the top end of normal. Of course, those same charts are the ones that say that Kate Moss is in the normal range, and Tyra Banks is well into the "overweight" category. It's really bizarre, though - I'm 5'8" and wear a 14 on a good day (a US 10), and yet I see women in magazines who weigh what I weigh and wear a size 26, because they have so little muscle, and much lighter bones than me. I have my ancestors' heavy bone structure, and a lot of muscle - oh, it's muscle that's covered with fat, but it's there nonetheless.
Hopefully I can get to the gym tomorrow. I wanted to start back at the beginning of January, but the snow put a kink in my plans. (Buses in this town are crazy-bad at normal times, and with the snow a lot of them simply weren't showing up at all.) Aside from the gym, I intend to sleep away much of the day, and try and finish painting my room. (I won't finish tomorrow, but maybe Monday, if I push it.) I have a new bed arriving on Tuesday - my first bed in seven years; I've been sleeping on the floor since 2003 - and I'd really like the walls, at least, to be done by the time I set it up. I also need to sand the skirting boards, but that'll have to wait until February, because my mom's bought me a mini power-sander for my birthday.
I desperately need to buy some new furniture - particularly two bookshelves and two bedside tables, although a new vanity would also be appreciated - but I can't afford it unless the bank will give me an extension on the loan, or I can get a loan from elsewhere. Which I may have to look into in the next few days. I found the bookshelves I want - I can't post a link here, but you can go to ebay and search for "Tall White Belgravia Bookcase" - but they cost a fortune. I do have to get something, though - the ones I have at the moment are rattan, and while I quite like them, I can't ever get them clean of dust, and the dust is playing havoc with my allergies.
[I think I can post a photo in this blog! Actually, I can post pics on the AFF blog now too, they changed the rules a couple years ago, so forthcoming posts will occasionally include photos.]
Which reminds me, I need to buy a mattress protector and a hypoallergenic duvet to go on the new bed, I'm not taking a chance on getting any mites or allergic particles from my old duvet on my new mattress.
Argh - money! Everything comes down to money at the moment! I'm only two weeks away from finishing my first semester of uni, and the new semester starts in February, but I haven't quite got the money together yet.
Ehh, I'll think of something.
How's your January going so far? Are you managing to keep your resolutions?
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